Daycare Dilemma

The babies start daycare tomorrow.
This is very stressful and unnerving for me. At the risk of sounding like a over protective, crazy kind of mommy, I will say that I am freaked out and saddened.
I don't really know how to explain this feeling and I would fail miserably if I even attempt to, so I won't.
Now, I need to point out that my kids are fine with this(for the most part). We did a test run today and my son was his usual charming little self. He was flirting with every female teacher he came across. And of course, he's so cute that they all just wanted to hold him. He was in his little one year old glory!
My daughter on the other hand isn't so easy going. She did cry and she was very serious at first but she warmed up after she saw the playground. That was the selling point! We should've looked at the playground first and everything would've been great right from the start.
Keep in mind that this was all done with Papo right there with us. We were going to let him stay in his class so he could get himself even more acclimated (and flirt a little more too) but Maddie would have none of that! She screamed for Papo when she saw we were walking out and Papo was left with one of the teachers. She is so protective of her baby brother!
Wonder where she gets that from?
After our tour it was time to say goodbye to all the nice teachers and babies we met. And to my surprise, Maddie was giving one of the teachers a little smile while she hid behind her daddy.
Tomorrow will definitely be a rough one for all of us but it's what's best for them. Funny how I never gave daycares a second thought until last week. I never realized that there is so much emotion involved in leaving your kids at a daycare/school. If I could, I would keep them with me all the time! We'd watch Blues Clues, Brainy Baby and Mary Poppins until I couldn't hear another "find the last paw print and put it in our notebook...". We'd color and play chase and do all those fun things I like to do with my babies.
But with a heavy heart, I just can't. And so I end the blog the way it began, with the only thing on my mind right now:
The babies start daycare tomorrow.