Mommy Moments

Been going through some "mommy" moments these days... some happy, some not...

Mommy Moment #1: Separation Anxiety

"It goes away once you get back into the work routine" someone said. I wish I could remember who that "someone" was that told me that LIE so I could smack'em.  The emotional pain does not go away(atleast not for me).   It was extreme when I went back to work after my daughter was born and I ended up dealing with it but my heart ached everyday I was away from her.  I was getting good at dealing with it until now.  For the past few weeks I've been getting that feeling of "I HAVE to be with the babies".  Not good. Especially since I have no choice.  I have to work to help support our family.

Mommy Moment #2: PRIDE

Not quite sharing it with him but atleast she's nearby, holding the balloon :/

My Madison sings the entire alphabet, sounds out letters, knows her numbers from one to ten in English and Spanish and knows her colors in English and Spanish! She's awesome!!!  She's a little Diva and I love her sooo much!  Now,  my little Papo is already crawling like a little speed demon and standing.  He inches his way along while holding on to something.  He's my little bull. He's extra affectionate, very strong and just sooo cute!  Its really fulfilling to see how Papo and Maddie light up when they see each other. Today, while Maddie and I went out for some balloon shopping she even said "I share balloon with Papo".  Such a proud moment to hear my baby girl say the word "share".  Now that clearly does not mean that she will actually DO IT.  Baby steps people... 

Mommy Moment #3: Guilt

This is another one that I got pretty good at dealing with but has come back full force!  The guilt is two-fold. I feel guilty when I spend time with one child and not the other and I feel guilty when other people are watching my kids.  Basically, one child wants all my attention and I have to divide it up between the two of them.  Seeing their little disappointed faces are like knives going right through my heart.  And then, to top it off, I'm gone 5 days a week(sometimes 6) for about 10 hours a day when you add work and travel time.  All that equals less time for me with my babies and more time for someone else to care for them.

Mommy Moment #4: In Love

I'm just soo in love with these kids and my husband.  "You never know how much your mother loves you until you have your own children". Can't remember who said this one either BUT it is very true! And it is so nice to have my husband with me the whole way.  Parenting is very challenging at times and always fantastically rewarding.  With all the emotional ups and downs, having these children and making this family with my husband has fulfilled my life and made it complete.
Cheesy, I know, but still.. it's true...  :)